I just wanna write poems
and not even work,
Cause the pain of this chapter
is some really deep hurt.
I just wanna connect
with a community of friends,
That love and support me
from beginning to end.
I just wanna be hugged
and treated with respect,
And not lied to and junk
that makes me a wreck.
I just wanna accept
all these things that feel hard,
But the silent treatment is crushing
no matter who plays the card.
I just wanna believe
this has a benefit for me,
Yet at the moment I feel
you’ve just walked all over me.
I just wanna be loved
and accepted for who I am,
And not deal with fakeness
nor empty words from your hand.
I just wanna understand
in the midst of it all,
Why you played games
and built all these walls.
I just wanna try
to not run away,
When the pain hurts so much
I could cry for days.
© Misty W Gilbert
